saddest day of my life~~

on e 1st may..or rather last day of april..sis cat called..and said that she wanna bring baby back home for a week cos she miss him..so ..i was wondering..1 week..okie..onli hse will be quite quiet for a week..
but..something happen...it is not e way i think anymore...(T-T)..
on the 2nd of may...when i was in school..i suddenly miss baby alot and i sms sis cat to ask if baby is doin well over there..she den suddenly told mi that she wans to take baby back permanently..when i saw this sms..i was abt to cry..ALOT..but..i was in school..at that point of time i really wish that i could fly home immediately and blast out and CRY out loud and all i wan to.. so..there is nth i could do..i juz have to hang on till when i was travelling alone home..on bus..i really can't hold my tears anymore..they juz drip down to my cheek...and well..when i reach home..my bro was at home and there is no way for mi to reveal how i am feeling at that point of time..tried to get a hold of myself and onli to cry silently in my bed for a few days..there is really no way that i could stop thinking of baby..he has really become part of my life for almost a year..and suddenly..he is gone juz like dat..a week past and i've also learn that if you wan to have a happi life..you have to first renew your mind..change your thinking..i did..i noe that when baby is in sis cat's hand..he can lead a better and happi life compared to here..he can have better food every day...he can have e best medical treatment and enjoy lots more..yes..i noe i love him very much..there are times that i tot of snatching him back from her..but..suddenly this message pop out in my mind.."love.. doesn't need him to be by ur side all the time..as long as he is happi and you noe it..thats enough.."
so do you think i am "wei da?"
i'm not k..i always noe that i cannot keep wat isn't mine at all.."bu shi ni de jiu bu shi ni de"..i just have to accept it..
alright..those down peak period are almost gone and now..i'm doin fine..haha..yap..actually i wan to take baby back to stay for a few days on wed..but bad news occur again..baby is sick..is quite serious i think..cos there is blood in his feaces..but i noe he is goin to be already..yap..
and ya..
i've celebrate my bday for 3 consecutive days..fri,sat and sun..
on fri..james celebrate with mi..we went to suntec to have our dinner @ fish and co..den proceed to chocolate bar at esplanade for some beverages before we went for a movie(the wild)..wa..that show was sooooo lame lo..lol..haha..
on sat..went for service then they celebrate for mi and my gift was a mickey mouse shirt from M-industries..after that we went to city hall for dinner and..after i met some friends to celebrate till like 1 plus and then go home...haha..they wan to sabo mi..but..too bad..i noe their tricks..hohoo..
sun...went to serve and go eat at tampines..after that went to xuan's hse be4 meeting wen and e rest..wait till i sleep lo..lol..like ard 7 we set off to changi airport for swensen..den go see aeroplane and enjoy e ambience while mi and wen talk out hearts out...den finally my bday celebration is over..veroy send all of us home and have a good nite rest..
thanx to all of them as these ppl really light up my life..